“I am Not Trying to Be Any Way”
Jan 19th, 2025: 9:30 PM
A Doctrine on the Way
A good person first of all is not something that we learn to become.
To see good people see children. Raised by wolves would be best.
It is good when a man is naturally tired from his own discipline. It means his day has been successful.
If every day you wake up happy to be alive. If every day you feel a little bit healthier, mentally, physically, emotionally. If everyday you are able to do the things you want to do, free from procrastination, then you are close. If you must rely on substances to guarantee this, you are far away.
If you use substances, and do not care at the speed of transformation, and do not use them to guarantee a certain feeling, you are not far away.
If your cravings, your ego, your passion arise and you do not care for you have seen them pass away… you will be close.
There is no way. If you try to find the way, you will go further from your own nature. If you try to find your way, you will go further from your own nature.
Perhaps some in the past thought they must teach a way to teach that there is no way, and overtime we lost the concept that children naturally live in this state which is the way.
One day we shall all find the way again.
Once you find the way, do not worry on why it is the way, or how it became the way. Incessantly looking for the answer to everything and the reason it all came about, will bring one further away from the way. Let the desire to know pass away as one walks down the path.
A knowledgeable one with little strength will struggle.
One with great strength but no knowledge will struggle.
One with great strength and knowledge will struggle without understanding.
With enough strength, knowledge, and understanding even the darkest bird will find its way.
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I am Not Trying to Be Any Way
A man was going through a forest and saw a turtle on the path.
To the turtle: you are too slow!
Turtle: I am not trying to be any way.
He saw a rabbit going to and fro so he accused the rabbit: you must slow down to appreciate the world!
Rabbit: I am not trying to be any way.
He saw a bear eating the carcass of an animal: you are too vicious!
Bear: I am not trying to be any way.
He saw an owl high in a tree: You are too wise!
Owl: I am not trying to be any way.
He saw a family of deer sitting under a tree: You are too pretty!
Deer: I am not trying to be any way.
He came upon a dog that was barking at a squirrel up a tree: Your bark is too loud!
Dog: I am not trying to be any way.
The man continued his walk. He began to contemplate how the animals do not follow a way. They have no concept that one way is better than another. A lion or tiger who did not hunt would die. They cannot be any other way than that for their survival depends on it.
He thought to himself, maybe I will try their way.
He repeated to himself: “I am not trying to be any way,” and went about his day.
In the next forest, he saw a Giraffe. In the past he might criticize it for being too tall, but there was less desire within because he saw the Giraffe was tall for a reason and needed his long neck to eat from the highest tree.
“Hmm, that is interesting… I have no desire to criticize the giraffe.” He took note and continued with his mantra: I am not trying to be any way.
And with that the world slowly changed back to its original nature.
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We are raised from birth to try to be different ways depending on the situation.
With some we are delicate. With some we are abrasive. With some we are quiet. With some we are loud.
Before the action we question if it is the right way for this situation. After the action we question if it was the right way for the situation. With that, we judge unconsciously if our way was correct or incorrect. This the man found was the fault of society. In the pursuit of the best way for every action, we forgot that we, like the animals of the forest, even if they seemed to change based on need, did not, and with that were always just being the way they were, not trying to be one way or another.
Self affirmation mantra: I am not trying to be any way.
Jan 21st, 2025:
People act like they are wealthy, and yet deceive themselves while allowing the printing of unlimited money. Acting like the number is important in their bank account. Maybe crypto will destroy this concept on its own. When people see how quickly crypto numbers can rise, they will see that all the money in the world means nothing. A millionaire is nothing. A billionaire is nothing. If anything, the larger the bank account the larger the shackle and larger the microscope on oneself.
some convince themselves they are perfect because they are financially secure, or their line of thinking is perfect… but can they be perfect if hated by the world? Or is that their function? To show the world its own anger.
When doubt is removed:
When one can at any point re enter their original state, at that point doubt will begin to be removed. I am in that phase.
When doubt is removed, one knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that one is under no obligation to share it with anyone, and in reality there will not be a desire to share it with everyone. It already exists and will always exist.
Some have been able to illuminate the path better than others. Only those who had lost all doubt could share it as is or as it happens. Don’t look for opportunities to help. But be content or joyful when the opportunity to be an example comes.
The journey is to find the self, but upon finding it realizes it is ever changing, and that when one never aims to be trying for an aim, they can live in self and no self simultaneously, perhaps.
It is a surrendering but also by completely taking control with no doubt and full understanding.
It works through you, and you take part on allowing it to do so. When one is not aiming to be a certain way, it gives great freedom.
“I am not trying to be any way” is not the same as there is no way.
Do not ask oneself “Am I acting a certain way?” Nor “Am I trying to be a certain way.”
Merely understand and be with “I am not trying to be any way.” You may feel the subtle shift and eventually forget the concept of “I am not trying to be any way.” That is fine. Repeat as necessary until you reach zen.
You will experience this, and have. It’s a returning to normal thinking or original natural healthy thinking. Keep going until there is no doubt and you are delusion free.
Graffi
Blind House Magazine 
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